And so I settled into mumma life over winter with Blaze continuing fly in, fly out work with 5 weeks away and 1 week home. Blaze putting up the cash for large amounts of Ice, runners taking the cash to NSW and driving back down the Hay Plains with 'product'.  All of this being managed by Blaze working overseas. And me at home with a newborn.

In early December 2011 Blaze chose to finish up working up overseas, so he could be home for Jasper's first Xmas.  Blaze had declared that once he came home for good he was going to take a couple of months off work altogether. I didn't argue, he had been FIFO worker for the majority of our relationship, so it was nice to have him home for longer than 5 days. And let's face it, he was moving drugs anyway so there was cash flow if not legit.

Yet after about a week home Blaze told me he had been offered $10K to fly back overseas to work the week between Xmas and New Year. The construction company had a shortage of supervisors and offered high bonuses to anyone offering to work that period. Who could argue with that kind of money??

So Blaze flew out again on the 28th December 2011, back to work while I spend a lonely new years in a heatwave. Or so he said that is where he was. We will come back to this later.....

Yet once Blaze returned home a week later, the entire 'plan' fell apart and my life began to lose control and everything real was revealed as an illusion. The man I met completely changed into a crazy money hungry, drug induced, power and ego driven monster. Welcome to family life!